If You Wish It, Wish It Loud

Im back in long beach again, visiting 80. In the same house as last time, but sitting next to the very beat up comfy couch.

I like these trips. Although they are short it is always so nice to get away.

except i do think a lot when im driving. It's not too bad.

Thoughts-
Life. Love. Happiness. & Reason.
+ This week I was sick, tired, and not very productive. It was nice to finally relax and just be lazy because i tend to just go go go.

Here is my list of things to tempt "fate" with:
-Tell her. or stop
-actually keep some sort of savings
-do not smoke at all.
-dont buy anything un necessary.

GOOD LUCK :]

boys:
- i keep thinking that brandon or dominic were that guy.
but...then i was afraid of having a relationship (brandon)
and that is entirely my fault.

too much

there is a combination of things that causes someone to catch a cold.
- i think mine is.. the fact that a roommate was sick for about a month..
i have a very stron immune system and usually never get sick.
so i think that working so much was also a cause of this.

BUMMER :(

memory foam

im positive that it holds all my dreams and memories.
that it knows my sleep spot. and controls my emotions.

.. im joking.

im in a really good mood today. and thought a happy post was in much need.
so HELLO SUNDAY! :]

the real world

it is simple..

there are many things that i can't control. I can not prevent pain, or suffering, happiness, or laughter.

I know this. My emotions are my own. I am Emo because i want to be. I am happy because i make myself happy. There aren't reasons for certain emotions. I cry because i am sad. It is human nature to react to things differently.

So why do i get so emo sometimes? Usually they come in phases. Phases i wish i could control. They are the days i am alone the most.

too close

- Anytime i hear someone mention death.. it scares me. (everytime.... something drops inside of me and i automatically think of that day)

when my world shatters and you reach the darkest part of your life.. it's hard to think of worse times.

laura was just sitting on my bed.. and i swear that some part of her can tell when im having an emo day. -i like that about her.

she asked me before.. to say exactly what i think about when im feeling blue.

Droning Out

Its the 2nd day of 2009 and I'm sitting watching a Gangster Movie.
I'm on a very worn out COMFORTABLE couch, in a house that has no real heater except for a portable heater on the floor.
I find myself in Long Beach again visiting my twin sister.
After working 40 hours this week with 8 1/2 more to go I think that today was my favorite.
For these reasons:
-i worked 6 hours at work
-got a new lap-top case for my DELL
-L came back to SB and i drove her home
-No traffic to LB
-80 is doing really good

here is my list of resolutions:
1] $save!
2] balance life
3] workout 3x a week
4] find good in almost everything
5] work hard in school
6] stay organzied @ home
7] do my best at everything i do
8] do GOOD

always

.. for everyone who has/had breast cancer. my new tattoo will be in support of you [including my mom]

- went to long beach spontaneously with laura.. my twin sister and i got tattoos! (a crazy, insane, spontaneous night)

.. today: almost woke up late for work.. another 6am shift which i like because i had the whole day to run errands.

ashley and i just did our first laundry trip since moving into the house and not having a washer and dryer... i have to get used to the idea that i cant wash my car whenever i want to either :(